Untitled (for a reason)

 She laid in bed last night, not being able to go to sleep. "Fine." She said as she turned on the lamp and picked up her conveniant clipboard with paper and her favorite pen and she wrote her to do list for the next day.

   + Make a plan for the "soonly"
            . Budget
            . Schooling
            . Foods I like

It included other things like letter writing and scripture reading and studying about me and cleaning my room..
(Ha. Didn't get those things. The night isn't over.)

 

So she set out the next morning. She made a budget with her mom now that she almost has a job. She wants to move out. She wants to go to college. She wants to live on her own and learn about the world. She wants him to fall in like with her again and marry her.

The evolution of my face as I went through this whole ordeal.

"Let's conquer this with enthusiasm."
"Well actually I think this makes me a little nervous."
"Ok. Not sure what to think about this whole growing up thing."
"Yeah nevermind. I don't like it."

There should be another that says - "Let's go make a fort and eat animal crackers and watch Winnie the Pooh."

I really am excited and I really do want to get out there on my own.
I see posts on facebook of all my now college-goer friends and they say things about their roommates and their apartments and how stupid college exams are and pictures of their first days of school.
I get jealous.
I want adventure in the great wide somewhere.
It will happen.
I just am scared of it.

"Go forth with faith."
"Be not afraid."