Humina Humina Humina

I really don't know what to write about... I just feel like I should write.

Plus I have nothing else to do.

Can I just say that I love having friends that I can go to anytime?

Lately I've been doing a lot of soul searching, and trying to find out who I really am and what I want in life. And I've been asking my friends what they think of me. Honestly. I've found out some things that I would like to change or am working on, but I've found a lot of positive things too. Now I'm not saying that my friends are telling me negative things about myself. I've been asking them about what I think are negative things about myself. But there's been a "lesson" I would call it, thats been getting to me a lot lately. It's being honest with yourself. Writing down things you don't like about yourself and trying to change them, but more importantly writing things down about yourself that you like about yourself.

Anyway, getting back to the "friends-I-can-go-to-anytime" thing. I have this one friend who's told me at times to just be straight forward. Don't be afraid to ask questions. Or express your true feelings. And I've been working on that. Most of you that really know me, know that I can be shy at times...most times, and pretty out there other times. This person knows both sides of me pretty well. It's hard for me to express my true feelings in person. I tend to stick to notes, or email, or facebook..which is really bad. This person and my relationship started on facebook. I tell them everything on facebook. I just can't seem to go up to them and ask them a question. Or start up a conversation out of thin air. Frankly, I'm pretty jealous of this person. They can do that. I think..SO far as I've seen. They are confident in themselves and they have lots of friends because they are so social. It really surprises me when I'm social. At youth conference this last weekend, I interacted more with the boys in my ward then ever before. It was strange. I didn't understand it. And then when we come back to reality, I can't seem to just talk to them like I do when I'm away from everybody. Some I can, like Kent, and Ryan and Mack. But others, I just don't know what it is. Hmm.. Sorry. Ranting on about my personal life. I just want you all to know that having a best friend like I do, having a person that tells you that they are there for you if you need them, having a person that tells you they love you all the time and also when they think you need it (which everytime I did), is one of my most treasured things in my whole life. I just want this person to know, that if you are reading this, and you know who you are, I love you so much and I am so grateful for you in my life. Thank you.

Funny, I feel like I should end "In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen."

But it's not that sort of thing.

I sure hope that someday you find that person in your life. And if you already have one. Good for you. You have no idea how much it helps you through your life.

Oh the countless times that it has helped me.

Again, Thank You.